Saturday, November 15, 2008

...AND I LOST MY VIRGINITY

....AND I LOST MY VIRGINITY

I waited for so long. Wanting to do this yet knowing that i probably should not. The desire in my heart so strong, yet the fear in my heart stronger. "Would i do it right? Should i wait a bit longer? or should i never do it at all?" These questions played in my mind. My heart raced faster. I wanted and at the same time i didn't want. I shut my eyes. Tomorrow i said, not today. i would wait for tomorrow. Many tomorrows passed and still, i waited. Then i realized no matter how long i waited for tomorrow, my fears would never cease. I had to give in, fear or no fear, doubt or no doubt. i had to let go and do what i had to do.
Mighty frightful steps i took to the path that led to only one way, losing my virginity.

. ....and i lost it. Painfully and yet gladly so, i lost my virginity...

With each gentle stroke and tap of the keyboard, i gave a path of me, first my name, then my email address and then my password, my date of birth...i gave it all....and when i was done caressing the keyboard with the soft tip of my fingers, i felt shivers run down my spin, cold and sweet shivers as i thought of what people would say as they read how i lost my virginity as a blogger... Would they like my blog or would they mark it as one of the sites never to revisit? well the damage is done, there is no going back. i have come this far. As far as blogging goes, i have lost my virginity.
And with a big smile, i welcome myself to the big world of bloggers and i also welcome you to the JOURNAL OF A LIL WOMAN!

62 comments:

tommeh said...

Fiction or Non-fiction?

exschoolnerd said...

this was well written rukks...lovely first post...welcome to blogville...finally i got u to start blogging..there i was thinking i was gona read sum juicy story about losing ur virginity..lol....u know ill def be back!!

oh yeah and update already!

Temite said...

Great! Welcome dearest. I just know you are going to have massive amount of fun. Everyone is super supportive (most of the time) lol! You will find all kinds of inspiration on here, and I just know you are going to be blessed. Errr there is a rule you must however know about. Every new blogger must come over to TEMITE's house to wash dishes, and do her laundry and cook her meals for 4 weeks. You must also pay this TEMITE $500 us dollars to keep your blog up. These are the rules! P.S I did not make the rules, it was the community of bloggers that decided this. Please do ask them.
As a welcome you get a Temite kiss. Do you feel the glow? Happy writing.

Cappuccine Baby said...

Welcome to blogsvill dearie, good start!

Padosh said...

You terrible tease, very well written, welcome to blogsville!!!!!

Miss Definitely Maybe said...

there i was thinking I was getting some saucy bedtime reading lol
Welcome to Blogsville, Im sure everyone will make you feel welcome,
will definitely be back

bumight said...

lol, at first i thot "she's really going for the shock factor with the first post"

welcome to blogville.

see me later for orientation, but first go and wash all the blogville toilets as part of your initiation rites!

Naughty Eyes said...

Like XsN said, lovely first post! I believe the first post, like the first impression determines how people will react to the blog.
And you've got XsN as a backer too... Lucky you! At least you've got 7 comments on your blog already!
I'll be checking you out.
Welcome!!!

Black Berry said...

hehe..u got me

K said...

hey welcome to blogvilla....great first post. Will definitely be back.

ChiefO said...

we were all disvirgined one way or the other. thank God you allowed yourself to or should credit go to XsN for tempting u into doing the do. nice first post, it shows u av some cells of crazy in u. eerrm im on ur side, you have some fees to pay though. its $1000 engineering fee, $500 blog reading fee, $250 comment fee, and because its close to the end of the year, u have t pay end of the year fee too.



UPDATE! or else u'd have to pay the update fee as well.

Ms.O said...

Welcome to blogville...:)

disgodkidd said...

welcome. looking forward to reading you.

winning said...

Very creative, good suspense. I game.

You can pls drop offline anytime a new blog is up, like exschoolnerd does.... IM= tayoolat2

bArOquE said...

no BLOOD my dear, i guess IT wasnt that bad...apparently IT was that REMARKABLE you had to write about IT...next time use PROTECTION ok, its a HARD world out there

WELCOME ONBOARD!!!

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LG said...

lollll na wa o'
welcome to blogville dear'

Raisins and Rum said...

welcome ...

Osondu Nnamdi Awaraka said...

Impressive first post! It's a sign of good things to come...i can't wait. I'm just in from Ex-school nerd.

WELCOME TO BLOGVILLE!!!!

Er...i don't think a lot of blog visitors like this word verification thingy...i don't like it though...but that doesn't matter sha...

Just...Toluwa said...

...in from XSN...welcometo Blogsville!

Or as the yorubas wld say, Ka'aabo!

Iwalewa McDaniels said...

wow!! This is the way to break into blogville.

With this write-up, I'll definitely be coming back to ur blog.

Nefertiti said...

Nice write-up! I must admit you got me with the title, but I was so NOT disappointed.
From one slightly older newbie, Welcome! I don't think I'm seasoned enough to request a fee like older bloggers, but ermmm, i'm still ur senior, so u have to settle me too.

I'll def. be back, babes!

dhayor said...

I love ur courage to make ds ur first post,so sure it isn't easy for u to do this but all d same, kudos....av a wondaful time on blogsville.

geisha.song. said...

welcome lil woman!
like the way you wrote this. i knew where you were going with it and yet it was still appealing.

Invisible said...

dang bumight, kilode. what a meanie.

well, as disappointed as I was in finding out this was not the real thing, I wont punish you like bumight. welcome to blogsville, blogosphere, blogger or whatever you want to call it. lol.

Hide and Seek said...

WELCOME!

AlooFar said...

Welcome to blogville.
You sure will have fun.

But stay away from... *clearing throat*... nerdschoolex ;)

Princess Jumai said...

haha... very funny
welcome to blogville

musco said...

well written esp 4 a 1st post but ensure u don't follow the footsteps of 'exschoolnerd'-(just joking o!).

welcome to blogville!

SOLOMONSYDELLE said...

lol! very nice! Welcome to bloNGville.

NIGERIAN CURIOSITY
IT WAS SO MUCH EASIER WHEN I ONLY HAD ONE...

teebay said...

mmm

Abujamaiden said...

Welcome to blogville dear. You're already a hit!

Buttercup said...

Welcome lil woman! Just bear in mind that once u pop, u cant stop! Hehe! ;)

Funms-the rebirth said...

a big welcome!!!!!!!!!!! i'd def be back here

Tisha said...

Tommeh are you crazy
she's talking about becoming a blogger
to
'journal of a lil woman'
b4 long, u'll love blogville
welcome to blogville
we officially dub thee XSN's friend

InCogNaija said...

you r definitely startin gout with a bang!! First with the tittle, i was like, "wat!!! first post and she is writing about losing her virginity? this gotta be good!"
I like how u spun it tho. and look how many comments you already got. not an easy task on a first post.
Hope to see you around some more.

zara (my alter ego) said...

nice beginning.. i actualli had other thots..hehe

Oyinkansola ...Honeydropz....... said...

welcome to blogville
nice first post by the way
trust me, you will love it here

The experiences of an achiever....... said...

Welcome to blogsville Miss Rukks, I was already rubbing my hands in glee anticipating scandal until u burst my ballon! interesting fresher..will definitely be revisting.
P.S- u should definitely check www.carlang.blogspot.com , you two seem to think alike.

~Sirius~ said...

Welcome to BlogsVille....
Really Nice post....Loving your creativity.

princesa said...

Welcome to Blogville.
Nice Intro.

doug said...

Shouldn't you be ridin' wild now? I mean it HAS been a month since you so shamelessly popped your cherry? lol

Jaguda said...

u must be doing something right to get 43 comments on ur first post. well done and welcome. proud of u

calabarboy said...

Lovely post and lovely literal make up

La Reine said...

Nice one.
Welcome to Blogville.

Itsme! said...

Nice analogy...
Will you tell us about the other one too...

Naughty Eyes said...

Hate to do this but please update...? The suspense is killing me. Or has your writing carried "bele"?

Olushola Bodunde said...

You're Welcome

doll said...

welcome...it doesnt matter if they dont like ur blog,...just do it 4 u

Larom said...

Lovely first post and welcome to blogville...Nice seing your face again...

miz-cynic said...

real happy for u jare...glad u read ur work.

RUKKY said...

i havent browsed in a longtime. i just checked blogspot today and i saw all these wonderful comments about my post. i feel so good. thanks all of u for ur support. its nice to know i have a family of writers.

doll said...

https://www.blogger.com/captcha?type=IMAGE&captchaKey=17rayv99vuksx
so y dint u update

Riri said...

welcom to bogville!!

FineBoy Agbero said...

hmmm, u're makin waves already!

welcome o...

NigerianDramaQueen said...

Haha what a g8 first post! I look forward to reading more from you!

Mama Shujaa said...

Just found your blog. :-)

Great first post.

Come back!!!

Mama S.

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Therapy said...

Wow that was good, lol you got me. Welcome! You're on my blogroll, I'm definitely coming back :D

Spicytee said...

When Exchoolnerd invited me to your blog, I was all excited with the title of your first post(lol)

But I was not disappointed at the end though.You sure can write babes.

I'm keeping a tab on u babes.

tommeh said...

lol @ Tisha.. I know I was just teasing. Plus, it's also fun when read from the other perspective.

Oh yeah, come to think of it. I was the first to comment..

rethots said...

Beautiful.